Guys,
Happy Diwali. 🙂
Its been almost 3 months and for many of you this is first Diwali away from home and I can’t even imagine how much you must be missing home. Home misses you too. I miss you guys. So yes this will be one of those long emails. Park everything that you are doing and give your best friends email 5mins of undivided attention!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Firstly just take two mins of your time before you start reading this and after closing your eyes just think about all the things that has happened in these three months. Feel everything. The joy when you got your admit, the first flight, the last kiss, the last hug, the new hugs, the new parties, the new project, your trips, everything.
Now just breathe. And believe that this is the life you have lived in these three months which million of people dream to live and take their lifetime to live. Not to sound sad you guys are somewhat also living few parts which I want to live. Be Grateful. Be thankful. Acknowledge it. Makes life simpler, journey easy and brings you back to your path.
Honestly the feeling of missing home will die when you actually come home and stay for more than 4 days. Trust me its been only 4 days and I cant wait to go back to Pune. And its not to do with anything at home. I’m enjoying everything. The love, all fattening ghee food, the people, the old memories, the places where I belong. Those places and all these things are a part of me which no body can take away from me. But at the same time I can’t wait to create or make new things a part of my life. I realized that you start living different lives when you are at your home and when you are away. From the strong, confident, independent, striving person you become this vulnerable, emotional, peoples person who is comfortable of where you are because you have a cuccoon of love of your people protecting you.
Do you remember swimming for the first time? When somebody throws you in the giant pool where no body can die but for you its the ocean of death and how you struggle like a dying fish moving your hands, shoulders, legs, neck and body only to make sure you are alive and so that you can reach the other end. Living alone away from home is like that. Just a million times harder because you don’t know where is the end of the pool. But the security with which you enter the pool when you are wearing a float is the security your home gives you. The result, you will become a learner. But without the float you are a fearless learner.
All the people who have lived with the people they love (including me) are also learners but are those kind of people that still need float while diving in the pool. Accept it or not we are yet to learn to live fearlessly without the float.
Because I don’t want to settle in my comfort zone. Believe in the idea of what people create for me when they say ‘ a settled life’ . To be honest thats all we have been doing for the past 20 years leading a settled life now its the struggle. Struggle to find people, your passions, yourself, your money and also your new home. Its also a struggle of letting the old things only be a part of yourself whether it was Diwali at home or drinks at the terrace or galvanating in the night or random nights in India. Its a struggle to become a fearless learner who is ready to make or create new things a part of your life.
Let this Diwali bring you lights that will guide you to your new house,
A house where you create your bed of emotions,
A house where you build your new family of people,
A house where your past is in your heart and your present can’t wait to enter,
A house where your aspirations burn with hope,
A house where your struggles bring a new person in you,
A house which soon becomes your new Home!
Much love and Faith,
A struggling fearless learner.
TheSinghStory 